Realisation

I have to be honest instead of being so bloody naive!! The smiles were not for me; they were for the top of the list- red wine. That can bring a smile where I can't. He is my husband but I am his carer. How sad to realise this. Been thinking about it all day and wondering why I have to settle for this- and the answer is - because I love him and the memory of him and the memory of us. Funny that the cause of the brain injury is still between us - like the other woman but in a bottle. So I suppose I just get on with it- any other choice?- don't think so- until the next life changing stage of my life here I stay.............................